After work, I picked up Paul from his Bronie party. Apparently he had a blast. I’m glad he’s finally making friends. Woke up after 4 hours and went to Janet’s house for her housewarming party. I was quiet as usual, but had fun. Its incredible how stupid you feel when you’re surrounded by intelligent people. Everyone was using big words that I didn’t understand. Janet is gonna give me info for a church like hers that’s close to where I live.
Got to work and it was a disaster. Looked like a tornado had hit the home. Then Mel started texting and saying he had been texting me with no response. However, I’ve had a signal all day and nothing. Then I got to thinking…more things don’t add up. For example, he insisted he had pics of me sitting at a desk. I don’t even own a desk. He was texting someone else while with me a lot. His story on where he lives keeps changing. Tonight, he sent me a pic of him with a bus behind him that is the same as is close to my work, while he’s supposedly in Salem, and wouldn’t answer where he was. He said he called and left me a voicemail the day he was supposed to meet my family and I checked it and nothing, not even a missed call. Then, tonight, during our conversation, he said he thought I fell asleep after I asked him a question. He said I told him I was falling asleep. I never said anything of the sort, I’m working grave and wide awake. When I called him on it, he said he texted the wrong person. Things are just fishy. I don’t know what to think but I’m definitely taking it slow, he is hiding something.
So, I finally got the guts to call a rape hotline over the incident on 12/18. I just hope I have the guts to actually go to the nurse to be checked out. I’m scared and nervous.
Prayers….that I have the guts to follow through, that everything comes to light with Mel, a new job for Paul and me, another safe night at work
Feelings….the back of my neck hurts, which is how my fibromyalgia spells start, scared, nervous, confused