My name is Julie. I am currently single with a grown son. I am a Christian and love the Lord whole heartedly. I have lived all over the world and endured many trials and tribulations. I am a complex person. My blogs are in general to heal and learn to cope with my past and live a better life now. Although I tend to learn from my mistakes, I find myself repeating the cycle without knowing it until somebody says something.
My life consists of many forms of abuse. Some forms I didn’t even know existed until after each situation was ended and I was able to talk about it. The crux of everything is this ultimate search for happiness which I am still learning what that is. All I have known is abuse and I am 37 years old. I have fleed situations, lost weight, tried medications, changed living situations and beliefs in order to find happiness. Although I am trying to stop the cycle of abuse. I have an overwhelming urge to help the forgotten. This is where I desire my career to go.
My life also consists of many illnesses both physical and mental. I am a heavy set lady and believe that as I get thinner, my health will improve. All of my health, physical, mental and emotional.
I really don’t think there is anyone left in the world that could handle me, but desire strongly to find true love and companionship.
So, I keep falling from faith, losing my focus in life. Which, in turn, I fall into the same cycle of bad health and bad relationships. My biggest question in life is…HOW DOES ONE BREAK THE CYCLE OF ABUSE? Whether from others or myself.