So, the prayers helped. Thank you for all the prayers. I had another episode at work and I didn’t shake. Which I thought was weird. I hit my head pretty hard so I went to the emergency room and they told me it sounds like it’s cardiac and not seizures. So they admitted me over night. I had another one at 7:30am. They told me it was my pacemaker and sent me to another hospital to get it taken care of. They put me in CICU then put a temporary pacemaker in me for the weekend. Then on Monday they replaced my pacemaker and leads as the leads were faulty and been in for 18yrs. I was in the hospital for a week and ate 3 meals a day wherein I know I gained weight. So as soon as I got out, I went back on the 900 calories a day for a couple weeks, then back up to the 1200 a day. I am now losing again and am down to 157lbs. That makes a total of 195lbs lost. Again thank you for the prayers.
Is Food Your Idol? March 31, 2013
“God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble.”
Are we letting God be our refuge or do we take our troubles to our idols?
This was the topic of discussion at my job last week. It got me thinking. Many people have addictions to a variety of things. Smoking, drinking, caffeine and so on. But what about food? Let’s define addiction. Merriam-Webster defines it as persistent compulsive use of a substance known by the user to be harmful. Anything that enters your body can potentially be harmful. And if you compulsively eat, you are definitely harming yourself. You are making decisions that will harm you. God wants you to take care of yourself as He calls your body a temple. Maybe you don’t realize that you are compulsively eating. Okay, when you are upset or worried about something, do you go for chips or ice cream? Or better yet, a soda? Then you are compulsively eating and not going to God with your troubles, but using food instead.
If you’re not compulsively eating, what are you spending more time doing? Eating? Or Spending time with God? God should definitely come first or whatever we are placing in His place becomes our idol. Really sit down and think about how much time you spend eating, thinking, preparing or shopping for food. It adds up quick doesn’t it? So, let’s concentrate on making God first in our lives.
This puts food in a different perspective doesn’t it? So this is where I changed my view of food. Food is sustenance. Yes, it may be enjoyable. But, God comes first. So let’s not make food out idol. Let’s allow food to give us strength to stand firm in our faith as sustenance to become a greater person in Him.
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Healing…My Eyes Are On Heaven March 8, 2013
I have chosen many paths to heal. It seems to be my nature to travel many paths at once. But, I believe this is the most important path to healing of all. I have found the greatest comfort in God. I had to come to the realization that I don’t actually need anyone but Him. In a sense, I have become His bride depending solely on Him and His guidance. Over the years, I’ve had times wherein I felt I was following His lead. After examining everything, I discovered I was following other’s ideas of how they were guided by Him. It was only after I fully came to Him in 2011 that I discovered what and who He actually is.
He is a comforter. A God that holds me when I cry. Knowing that everything will get better and be alright in the hard times is great comfort. Knowing that when I am in great pain, that it will end is how He comforts as well.
He is a provider. Every time I think I’m not going to make it whether financially, physically or mentally, He provides a way. He shows me the path to take to bring me out of the darkness and somehow provides everything I need.
He is a teacher. He has taught me so many things. He, through great trials, taught me to not fear anyone. No one can harm me in any way if I don’t allow them to. But the greatest thing He has taught me is to love. Everyone deserves love no matter what in some way. Someone I knew used to say, “you have to earn my respect”. This defeats the purpose of Jesus, I believe. He taught us to love everyone, which in turn is giving respect with no expectation for return. Which leads me to the next.
He is a lover. Plain and simple His love never fails. Every time I mess up, He reminds me that He still loves me no matter what.
He is a miracle worker. There are many times where I have no explanation how things happened. When our cupboards were empty, He prompted people to leave food on our doorstep. When I was in so much pain I wanted to die, He suddenly healed me. When I was dead, literally, he brought me back to life. He amazes me everyday with every miracle great or small.
It is for all these reasons that I believe the greatest way to heal completely is give everything to Him. Every emotion, feeling, hurt, pain, memory, disease and burden is handed to the feet of Jesus. If I were to die today, I am confident that heaven is my home. And with heaven at the forefront of my mind, healing comes naturally. Yes, I have my down times as we all do. But, unlike others, I quickly snap out of it and focus back on Him. That changes my mood and outlook fast. Sometimes, it takes seconds, sometimes hours, but it does go away. Knowing that heaven is the goal and loving Him is the greatest love of all boggles my mind and soul.
And, for this reason, the greatest healing, is knowing that in heaven all pain and loss will be gone. So I keep my eyes on heaven.
Fibromyalgia March 2, 2013
At the beginning of June in 2012, I thought I was coming down with the flu. My body ached, I was nauseous, tired and weak all the time. Only thing was I never got a fever, and it was summer. I thought it would pass and just slept a lot and took Nyquil. It got worse. The pain was still all over my body, but worse pain began localizing to my neck and shoulders, knees and elbows. Then the headaches started. They were so bad that even light hurt. I was losing the battle to feel better. I so I went to the doctor.
The first one said she didn’t know what to do, gave me pain medications and sent me on my way hoping that it would get better and told me to call in a week if no change. Of course, nothing changed, things got worse. I was now losing sleep because I woke up in so much pain. Everything hurt so bad. Parts of me that I didn’t know could hurt, hurt. My eyelids and under my toenails. It was amazing how terrible I felt.
I went to the next doctor and he swore I had Lyme Disease. He ran tons of bloodwork and that came back normal. He sent me on my way with more pain medications and some nausea medications. Again, no change, I just got worse.
I went to the third doctor and he said he would run a panel to check the functioning of some of my organs. Those came back normal. I was now getting mad and depressed on top of feeling constantly sick. I went back to that doctor and he said it all came back normal and he didn’t know what else to do. He referred me to a gastroenterologist for my nausea and gave me more pain medications.
The gastroenterologist said he didn’t know what it was and decided to do a endoscopy. That came back normal and he sent me back to the third doctor with normal results. When I went back to the third doctor, he said he wanted me to try a rheumatologist.
It took nearly a month before I could get into see him. The rheumatologist said he was sure it wasn’t fibromyalgia or arthritis and believed me to have a gluten allergy. He ran a series of tests. I went back to see him and he said they all came back normal. He asked for the results of my endoscopy and saw nothing there either. He told me to try a chiropractor and also see an endocrinologist.
The chiropractor seemed to help somewhat. It was because of him that I learned how to sleep to minimize pain. On my side. It actually helped. Upon his exam, he said this is something that is definitely in the nerves and not musculosketal. I saw him for a series of treatments, but no diagnosis, so I never really got better.
The endocrinologist was insistent that I was a gluten allergy and ran more tests. He seemed very cold-hearted and terrible bedside manner. I didn’t want to see him again. This part of the story continues on the Deficiancies post.
I called the rheumatologist and begged for an answer. I said no one he referred me to was helping. He decided referred my to his gastroenterologist.
That doctor ran deeper studies for a gluten allergy and found nothing. He said many things can cause nausea and just gave me strong anti-nausea medications. He then sent me back to the rheumatologist.
I called the rheumatologist again and he said he wanted to try a couple medications. He put me on Nerontin and Flexeril. He also referred me to neuropathologist to test my nerves.
The neuropathologist ran a test that ran electrical currents through certain nerves. He found something, but not what would be covering all the pain. This part of the story continues on Double Carpal Tunnel.
Suddenly, I began feeling better. The pain and nausea was dying down but not completely gone. I was amazed. I got a call from the rheumatologist and he wanted me to come in one last time. When I went in he was happy to hear that the medications he gave me were helping, but that because of that, it basically diagnoses me. He then diagnosed me with fibromyalgia. He decided to increase the dosage. The pain disappeared. FINALLY RELIEF & DIAGNOSIS!!! I was so happy. I felt like myself again. I still have flare-ups, especially now since I have no more insurance and medications, but I tough through it and keep praying through it.
Double Carpal Tunnel March 1, 2013
On my journey to discovering my fibromyalgia, I was sent to a neuropathologist. He did a test that sent electrical currents through my nerves. He started on my feet and lower legs. It felt kind of funny, but no big deal. The he did my arms. Now the reason why these tests were ordered was all because I began to have numbing in my limbs in specific parts. Especially my fingers. When he ran the current through my arms, the pain was crazy horrible. I jerked terribly. He sent the results back to my rheumatologist.
When I saw the rheumatologist, he diagnosed me not only with fibromyalgia, but severe carpal tunnel in both wrists. He gave me cortisone shots in both wrists and braces to wear while I sleep. He told me to stop crocheting. Now that is something that I just can’t stop doing. It has died down tremendously.
Upon the journey to discovering my fibromyalgia, one of the doctors I was referred to was an endocrinologist. He ran a series of tests. Blood work, urine, bowel movement, diabetes. He came to the conclusion that my thyroid was out of whack giving me hypothyroidism. He also found that my vitamin D and Calcium levels were extremely low. After he explored all the negative results of the gluten allergy (celiac), he began scrutinizing all my medications. The only meds that had these deficiencies as a side effect, was my psych meds. He diagnosed me with an intolerance to Depakote and demanded I get off it quick. He prescribed me prescription strength vitamin D, Levothyroxin, and over the counter calcium and vitamin D as well. So now I have a large medicine chest, but feel better. He was insistent that the supplements will make me better in a few months. I haven’t been able to get more meds or tested to see of these levels are better. This is another thing I have to wait for insurance to happen. However, whenever I remember, I still take the over the counter stuff.
Chronic Gall Bladder Disease & Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) February 27, 2013
In 2008, I began having stomach pain and diarrhea. It had gotten so bad that every time I ate, within minutes, I would be running for the bathroom with the runs and my stomach would ache terribly. And then while I ate, I would get terrible air bubbles, as I called them. It would be a bubbles of air that would cause me to gasp and hurt my lower throat. It seemed my entire digestive track had been crashing. I went days without eating for fear of the pain. I went to the doctor and he just prescribed acid reflux medicine. This didn’t help at all. After a few weeks, I went back to see him and he referred me to a surgeon. She prescribed me even more acid reflux medicines. She sounded like she didn’t believe me. Why is it that no one believes me when I’m sick? I know my body and know when something is wrong. And it just so happens, I get sick a lot.
So, after several appointments and medicines, the surgeon decided to run a test on my gall bladder. I don’t remember what the test was, but she concluded that it wouldn’t hurt to have my gall bladder removed. This was a day surgery. I checked in in the morning and they did the surgery through three holes in my abdomen. She said she was sending my gall bladder off to be tested and scheduled another appointment. After my surgery, the stomach pain went away and some of the “air bubbles” disappeared as well. Upon seeing her again, she said my gall bladder tested as Chronic Gall Bladder Disease and said, it was a good thing we took it out. I told her I was still having diarrhea. She said that I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome and told me to stay away from greasy foods. This seemed funny to me but I did what she said.
I lived with the diarrhea for years. It was only when I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia in 2012 that the doctors decided to put me on something to battle it. I was put on Cholestrymine. It worked like a charm. But as other medications faded, as insurance was gone, so did this one. Although I still have symptoms every once in a while, its is mostly gone now that I am on this new health plan. This is why I say…
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